The exhale of your sigh
ran the breadth of the desert
creating a wind to carry
gold, yellow and copper
pieces of sand
that whipped the letters
from the book of emotions
at the oasis of alchemy
and blew them over my cheeks
in words of love and vulnerability
where I lay in the shade
of the tree of possibility
smiling at my stubborn refusal
to send them back to you.
Life breaks through fault lines
in wild acts of defiant rebellion.
It paints its wilful disobedience
in rainbows over the desert sand.
Dark cold and abandoned corners
swirling in flames of fiery passion.
Life builds bridges for the future
with the tearful bricks of failure.
It stubbornly refuses hopelessness
with bright green shoots in black ash.
Using its wounded bleeding hand
to rescue the broken dying man.
Life waits with imperfect silent wisdom
to create a perfect miraculous moment.
It builds a peaceful harmonious flow
in the chaotic rhythms of the savannah.
It refuses to be bound humiliated tamed
every time a new breath joyfully cries.
I imagined the way I would rise
even before I fell
I had vivid visions of forgiveness
before the pain struck
When the storm clouds formed
the sun already broke through
When tears welled up in my eyes
A smile spread on my lips
I saw the beautiful hidden soul
when judge and jury condemned
Bells of pure and ornate crafted gold,
cast their hypnotic vibrating spells
on the hollow silence of a red brick hall.
Soft remnants of fragrant grey clouds
drift up with slow ease, from incense,
to the open air of dark wooden beams.
Light breaks into fragmented colours,
from a single enchanting mosaic window,
onto a spartan coffin resting on the floor.
One lonely soul kneels on cobblestone,
folded hands, hooded head bowed low,
mournful guilty face obscured by shadow.
Softly, slowly, chanting starts and grows,
from full cracking pleading bleeding lips,
rolling rhythmically into a red brick hall.
Calling on radiant transfiguration of light
to illuminate a new path past his coffin
away from these bells, the smoke the night.
The palm of my hand
rest gently on my hip bone
On the border of the
and naked skin
A faint light
peaks into the dark room
The slow breeze
from an obscured fan
softly touches the skin
of my outstretched arm
in the place
where you should be
I’m forever speaking
Leaving clues like breadcrumbs
Praying to the nonexistent god
That someone will see
and then find me.
Allow your face to crack
contort and disfigure itself
As the fountain of sorrow
bursts forth from your eyes
Allow your lips to bend
stretch and melt with grief
As tears form salty rivers
on your translucent cheeks
Allow your heart to feel
the tearing crack of breaking
As rockslides of sacred moments
crash down on your chest
Do not stop the fearful darkness
from throwing its’ cloak over you
As the last light of hope dances a
swan song on the wall of your mind
Stand in abandoned emptiness
wretched and deformed human
As you embrace your silver chalice
with its’ cold and red bitter poison
Be still in the face of your torturous demons allowing your end to come
As your wounded arms embrace the
companions who are no longer there
Allow this dark night of the soul
the path to a different brighter light
As you unfold your wings in a new sun reflecting in eyes with different sight